Why Mary J. Is My Girl

Mary J. Blige is the Aretha Franklin of this generation. The two songs that have ever moved me the most were 'Angel' by Aretha and 'My Life' by Mary.

I vividly remember as a teenager hearing 'My Life' for the first time. This song neatly wrapped in 3 or so minutes how I viewed my own life. It was like an awakening for me because all I wanted was for someone to walk in my shoes and feel my pain. It wasn't a song that got you more depressed about your situation. Rather it was one that made you realize that you weren't the only one. And that's very powerful to somebody who feels alone.



And let's not even mention 'Be Happy'. Every single time I hear that song even to this day I feel like Superwoman. I'll take my happiness with or without you, point blank there is nothing you can say to me.



If she never made another album, sang another song or made one more apperance ever again in life, she would still get my respect. Why? Because she isn't afraid to show vulnerability. Nobody looks at her and believes she is perfect. In the end, the music that matters is not sugary pop and bland r & b. But reflectful and meaningful music that you will remember because it touched your heart so. And this is why after all these years nobody has touched her or even tried to.

So Many Thoughts: Scatter Brain

People always tell me that I look very mean and angry all the time. I'm not mad all of the time, just 90% of the time. I hate when strangers look at me and say, "Damn, smile. It's not that bad". I smile just to get rid of them, when I should say that yes, it is that bad.


I don't know how to speak or write in ebonics, yet I'm black and have lived in the ghetto all my life.


I hate cleaning, especially when someone else gets it dirty soon after. But you know, I get skeeved at my own messes.


I wish I had more money.


Don't you hate when you post a comment on a site and then someone tries to ho you. "You just a hater anyway. You wish you had Beyonce's lace fronts". And I say "Yes, bitch I am a hater. I also have hair of my own".





I've been in college for the past 6 years of my life. I'm ready to leave.

At this rate, I'll never see the 'real world'.

Eggs are disguisting, but omeletes look delicious.

When using public restrooms, I always tear off the first few squares of tissue and throw it in the toilet. It skeeves me out thinking somebody touched it.
And don't even let it just be lying about because the janitors were to lazy to put it in the dispenser. Yuck!

I use public transportation everyday and I hate when someone sits next to me and makes a big deal about my fatness. Here they are hanging all off the seat holding on for dear life at every stop. Stand up then!!

Have you ever gotten on the bus, and all the handicap/senior seat were taken by grown men?

Does anybody else eat this stuff??

It's Great!

I consider myself to be a nice person only if I know you and you're nice to me. I find it hard to care about strangers. I'm not a very warm person.


Why when you talk to old people they start off pleasant and then get into some rant about crooked negro preachers and the downfall of the black community?


I've never had a boyfriend, that's why I'm not quite sure what I like in a man. I'm pretty sure he will look something like this:

I like shy people, they understand the pain.

I like to eat, but not cook.

Judging from so many 'I's', I'm probably more self-centered than I thought. My favorite person to spend time with is me though.

I sweat like a pig. Literally.















The urban dictionary ought to help me with my ebonics. Sad.


Lost 40 pounds in six months, though.

Giving The Old School Some Shine

I consider myself to be somewhat eclectic, but more so just weird. I've never bought into the fads and whatnot that my peers did. For some reason, I always gravitate toward things that just makes no sense whatsoever.

For example, my favorite artist is none other than the great Johnny Mathis.



Now I know for sure that there are not too many 23 year olds that would tell you that (if any). But he is, and I make no apologies for that. I just think that he is great singer. If people could drop their preconceived notions about things, a whole new world would open up for them.

Why is Johnny Mathis so great you say? Well there are a lot of reasons why. The most important though is the voice. Anything that he has ever sung was always sung with some sort of convinction. He is the King of Romance (a title I don't quite like), igniting passions for thousands of heterosexual couples everywhere while being homosexual himself. He had the first greatest hits record that stayed on the charts for some 9 years.
He was at one point the youngest African American to become a millionaire (something we take lightly today, but this was in the fifties people). And he currently has recorded over 100 albums.

Still you say, please why should I care. He's too white bread: I agree.


But that is where I draw the line. Because then you'll say he doesn't like black people and never contributed to the community amongst other complaints. But I say you're incorrect and people felt this way about Lean Horne, Sammy Davis, Jr. and Nat King Cole. Today they are legends though, aren't they?


So if you feel like me and think that 'Wipe Me Down' makes you a little dumber everytime it falls on your ears, then get yo' self some Mathis Magic. Besides, he can get crunk too!!












Here are a few clips of Johnny Mathis :)

My First Post

You know, I realize that it takes alot of ego for someone to believe that their thoughts and feelings matter to a large number of people. And even more so with hundreds of thousands of blogs out in Internet land. Well...I don't have a super ego. In fact, I'll be surprised if one person reads my postings. Eh, it doesn't matter. Hey, it's worth a go at it anyway I suppose.

I don't have a central theme as of yet. Probably just a bunch of my crazy, mixed up and random thoughts that hopefully you'll find amusing, or at the very least mildly insightful.

If I could describe myself in one word, I think it would be 'weird'. Yeah, I'm pretty weird for a 23 year old, black female college student. I like to go against the grain, mainly because I don't which way the grain goes.

So let's see where this will take us. Who knows, maybe one day I'll become the most famous blogger in cyberspace and become filthy rich and then use my money and power to crush all of those who oppose me!! Or maybe I'll give up on this like I did my last attempt to quit smoking and diet.